Fatherless by Suicide Project Index
Year my parents met as high school sweethearts in Kansas: 1966
Year they wed: 1970
Year I was born: 1978
Year my father took his life: 1981
Year that suicide surpassed homicide as a reported cause of death in the United States: 1981
Rank of suicide as a reported casue of death then: 9th
Age of my father when he died: 32
Age I was when he died: 3
Age I am now: 36
Years I tried very hard not talking about my father's death: 33
Rank of suicide as a reported cause of death in the United States in 2012: 10th
Number of reported suicide deaths per day: 111
Number of minutes that pass before someone takes their life: 13
For each single reported death by suicide, the estimated number of people who have attempted: 12
Estimated ratio of suicide attempts to suicide death in youth: 25:1
Percentage of suicide deaths in 2012 who were male: 78
Days before Fathers Day 2014 when I made a video and launched Fatherless by Suicide on Kickstarter: 2
Number of times my mom told me I should of got a haircut before filming: 7
Number of donors that supported the project: 160
Average donation: $79
Money raised to support the project via Kickstarter: $12,580
Money I could use after taxes and Kickstarter-related fees: $7,180
Estimated probono support: $5,000
Men who reached out to participate in the project: 24
Mothers who've lost their husbands to suicide who reached out: 8
Interviews I have set-up (in this phase of the project): 14
Interviews that I have conducted: 12
Hours of recordings: 20.75
Longest interview (hours): 2.5
Shortest interview (minutes): 49
Oldest person I interviewed: 85
Youngest person I interviewed: 21
Interviews I conducted after an impromptu conversation in a parking lot in rural Utah: 1
Number of wheels I traveled on to meet the participants: 2
Age of my motorcycle: 36
Engine size: 650cc
Miles traveled: 6472
Most miles traveled in one day: 636
Fastest speed: 104 miles per hour, Nevada desert
Slowest speed: Brooklyn. Simply, Brooklyn.
Encounters with police: 0
Times I passed a police car: 7
Countries visited: 2
States visited: 22
National Parks visited: 6
Highest elevation: 12,000 feet
Lowest elevation: 214 feet below sea level
Quarts of oil burned or leaked during trip: 3
Times I pumped gas: 52
Amount I spent on gas: $608.82
Most expensive gas I purchased: $6.28 per gallon; Death Valley, California
Clutch cables snapped: 2
Mufflers broken off in Detroit due to crater-like potholes: 2
Wires replaced: 1
Fuses replaced: 3
Bulbs replaced: 2
Times I broke down on the side of the road: 3
Times when strangers stopped to help me: 3
Cost of all parts and labor to get me back on the road: $570.10
Presumed cost of an incredibly generous Kansan mechanic who revived my bike probono: $2,500.00
Total days spent on the road: 80
Consecutive days spent riding in the rain: 3
Other days spent riding in the rain after I learned how much that sucked: 0
Nights spent with friends and family: 69
Children I read nighttime stories to: 8
Books I read during the journey: 1
Cliche factor: 100%, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance
Nights spent in a treehouse on a cliff surrounded by Aspen trees celebrating their full Fall radiance: 4
Nights spent out at sea on a 99-foot schooner as a gift while my replacement clutch cable shipped: 4
Pies I helped bake while aboard: 8
Nights spent in a tent: 8
Nights spent in a hammock: 1
Nights spent in a motel: 2
Cost: $152.53
Nights spent in a RV Park with my pocket knife in my hand due to a very sketchy neighbor: 1
Cost: $6.00
Emotional cost: Significant
Roadkill: skunks, 68 (until I stopped counting in Utah)
Roadkill: deer, 23
Times I had to swerve around deer: 4
Times I had to swerve around barking, frothing rabid dogs: 1
Times an oblivious tourist came within two inches of killing me with his Hertz SUV: 1
Number of fingers I used to express my feelings towards him: 1
Times my bike fell on me in a muddy ditch in Vermont while trying to take a shortcut through the woods: 1
Toes I likely broke due to that horrible decision: 1
Times I rode in the snow and sand, respectively: 1, 1
Times an elderly couple in Indiana approached me to put a wad of cash in my hand and said, "Gas is on us.": 1
Times I entered a vintage motorcycle competition: 1
Times I won anything at a vintage motorcycle competition: 0
Times I went to county fairs: 3